Thursday, March 14, 2019

Growing older

Little M will have another little being around her later this year inshaallah. I won't be announcing it officially until about a few weeks later, but who reads this blog any more? My mother and Sum are the only people I can think of, and its not a surprise to either of them.

Life is changing quite rapidly for me. Time moves fast these days. Right now, I am at GJ with some work to do and I just witnessed a bunch of high school kids talking about some maths test. It doesn't seem that long ago that the biggest problem in my life was a school test. But now those problems are completely irrelevant. My concerns these days revolve around - how on earth will I wean my almost two year old without dying or killing her, how can I maintain some level of cleanliness on a regular basis, what will I cook for dinner for guests coming over in three days.

I guess the only thing that is constant and consistent is my struggle in deen, as is everyone else's, I'm assuming. Ramadan is just around six weeks away. That's the same amount of time from birth to the first step of healing, same time as just over half a school term, around the same amount of time from conception to when you find out you are pregnant, same amount of time as our first big holiday. All of them flew. But it is also twice the amount of time to form a habit, which means, if I am focused and I start now, I can implement two new habits before Ramadan starts.