Imagining as an adult

It's in your head, he says.
The words were straight, not crooked.
The thoughts did not follow.
The look did not exist.
The snigger and the figuring out
The lingering air
The flicker of doubt
In the thicker part
of her words.
An endless list.
It's all in your head.
Repeat after him,
And you will believe
You will leave
Your thoughts alone.