Yet another afternoon with the sun peeking through the blinds of this room. I was quite excited when Cho & Co came over last weekend. I showed them my much loved windows. They must've been disappointed. Yes, I must've gone overboard with expressing my love for a few windows, but still, I was surprised to see a lack of reaction - any reaction. Even though there was about ten of them, and one of me, I like to think that my perspectives are more correct.
"Suppose, i gave you my eyes.
Will you be able to see
what i see??"
The tiny poem above is titled 'Even If', and written by a blogger called Sumi, to whom I was introduced by Smruthi (I figured, shortening her name is of no use any more, she has her full name in her blog). This girl is amazingly talented, and has a good eye. I love the way she sees the world as an artist, thus, she is right to doubt everybody else's points of views. I know a few other people like that, Ana, for example. Her mind seems to wonder everywhere, and create little beauties in unexpected places.
I am quite excited right now. There are several things happening in my life/in someone else's life I care about. It feels like another turning point, like I am living the moments I do not want to pass. Reasons for the adrenaline rushes:
1. Eid is coming up!
2. One of my best friends might be experiencing some new and pleasant experiences soon. I wish her, and all the people involved, good luck. (You're probably reading it, without an idea that this is about you!)
3. I am going on a holiday at the end of this year, to the country I have a love-hate relationship with.
4. I am getting a new camera! My mum has been very kind to offer me a camera, which, inshaAllah, we will be buying tomorrow. SLRs are still in my dreams, therefore, I shall be content with a point-and-shoot. In fact, I shall be very, VERY happy. It'll be my first camera, ever. :D
Alhamdulillah. Life is wonderful, and it is continuing to be wonderful.
A friend asked once, what I will say to my daughter if she makes my mistakes. I thought about it today. I figured, the only way to bring up a person to be a 'human being' is to bring her up according to what you truly believe in, instead of what you'd like to believe in. You have to be completely honest with her about everything in your life, even if they are shortcomings you would not like to reveal to a child. Wisdom and deception are not the same thing; neither are honesty and stupidity. Be wise, yet honest. If my child makes the same mistakes as me, even after I tell her my reasons for doing and not doing certain things, even after I try my best to be honest and wise, to lead her to the that I am truly convinced is right, then I will leave it up to her and pray to God that everything turns out fine - because, at the end of the day, everything is up to Him. In His hands, Who made me turn to Him. There is nothing I can do to influence another person's actions, if God does not want me to.
"I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I,
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference. "