Sunday, September 05, 2010

Today.

Yet another afternoon with the sun peeking through the blinds of this room. I was quite excited when Cho & Co came over last weekend. I showed them my much loved windows. They must've been disappointed. Yes, I must've gone overboard with expressing my love for a few windows, but still, I was surprised to see a lack of reaction - any reaction. Even though there was about ten of them, and one of me, I like to think that my perspectives are more correct.


"Suppose, i gave you my eyes.
Will you be able to see
what i see??"


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7.20 pm:


The tiny poem above is titled 'Even If', and written by a blogger called Sumi, to whom I was introduced by Smruthi (I figured, shortening her name is of no use any more, she has her full name in her blog). This girl is amazingly talented, and has a good eye. I love the way she sees the world as an artist, thus, she is right to doubt everybody else's points of views. I know a few other people like that, Ana, for example. Her mind seems to wonder everywhere, and create little beauties in unexpected places.


I am quite excited right now. There are several things happening in my life/in someone else's life I care about. It feels like another turning point, like I am living the moments I do not want to pass. Reasons for the adrenaline rushes:
1. Eid is coming up!
2. One of my best friends might be experiencing some new and pleasant experiences soon. I wish her, and all the people involved, good luck. (You're probably reading it, without an idea that this is about you!)
3. I am going on a holiday at the end of this year, to the country I have a love-hate relationship with.
4. I am getting a new camera! My mum has been very kind to offer me a camera, which, inshaAllah, we will be buying tomorrow. SLRs are still in my dreams, therefore, I shall be content with a point-and-shoot. In fact, I shall be very, VERY happy. It'll be my first camera, ever. :D


Alhamdulillah. Life is wonderful, and it is continuing to be wonderful. 


A friend asked once, what I will say to my daughter if she makes my mistakes. I thought about it today. I figured, the only way to bring up a person to be a 'human being' is to bring her up according to what you truly believe in, instead of what you'd like to believe in. You have to be completely honest with her about everything in your life, even if they are shortcomings you would not like to reveal to a child. Wisdom and deception are not the same thing; neither are honesty and stupidity. Be wise, yet honest. If my child makes the same mistakes as me, even after I tell her my reasons for doing and not doing certain things, even after I try my best to be honest and wise, to lead her to the that I am truly convinced is right, then I will leave it up to her and pray to God that everything turns out fine - because, at the end of the day, everything is up to Him. In His hands, Who made me turn to Him. There is nothing I can do to influence another person's actions, if God does not want me to.


"I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I,
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference. "

4 comments:

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  2. Hahaha she is quite good isn't she? You are having a really positive attitude on things nowadays! Keep at it! :P (Y)

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  3. umm....... You know I never can make up any argument to defy your ideas right now... but sometimes ( i think you'll agree) things don't go according to plan, and worse they don't go at all, the refuse to move and make your life a big tub of mush:(
    but I don't think it's a good idea to dampen your spirit, Have a nice Eid and enjoy!

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  4. Mr Lonely: Thanks for reading.

    Smruthi: That's what my sister said two days back! 'Tis all God's doings, dear. I do feel content, even when there is no apparent reason to feel that way, I feel like I have to be patient. The thing is - when you are guided by a power that's greater than you, you always feel secure. :)

    Rohossho balika: lol.. which part was that referring to? I think, right now, I honestly do believe that everything comes from Allah and He is the best of planners. So, if His plans are different to mine, then be it. I just have to be patient and see it through. Yes, I can sit there and think that my life is a big tub of mush and its not moving at all. OR, I can sit there and think, hey, at least my life is not moving backwards! Thank God its not! Its all about your perception and how you want to deal with things, rather than how things 'actually' are, because there is not 'absolute reality'. Everything is arbitrary. :)

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